"The words I would say"

I wake up late almost everyday since , I don't know when . I always have a really hard time when it comes to "sleeping" at night . I just could't sleep . So much things on my mind . Even I myself couldn't stop myself from thinking , thinking and thinking . A few minutes after waking up . I find out something that hurts me the most . It feels like your heart being slice slowly . I wish I could shout and mourn for all of the pain I've gone through but I couldn't and remain silent . (T.T) All I can do now is nothing other than crying ( So weak . Hate it . ). Yeah , my life is so great right . Just woke up and what more to say last night I pray and hope for the next day will be better and it wasn't . Wow ! My life is so great man ! Thanks ! 

*Sigh* 

It is so sad to be involve in a very big misunderstanding in life . Especially with your love ones , the person who you really love , the person who mean so much to you . I face a very very very big problem in my life now . I know I am wrong at the first point . I know I've done so much sins and wrongs towards the ones that I love . To be honest , I never want it to happen and I don't mean to . But , it happens . There's NOTHING that I could do now . I'm stuck . It is hard for me to forgive myself . Life is too hard to handle when it comes to this kind of situations . Well thats Life . What do you aspect ? Happy life ? Fairytale .  Nahh . That only occurs in DREAMS . Dreams only STAYS as a dream , that's why it is being called "DREAMS" . But , I will try my best not to destroy myself and make things getting worst . Enough is enough for me . I hate to see myself drop so deep down each day . It is time for me to get up slowly now . I know I am not a perfect person and that is why I try to repent now . I want to make things right . I surrender everything to God . I can only plan what to do in my life . But , He is the one who decides it .

After taking my ( breakfast+lunch ) I online . At first I wasn't in the mood at all . All I feels is nothing other than sadness and pain . Then I found this song . I never heard of this song before neither do the band . The first moment I listen to it I start to fall with the song . The words in the lyrics catch my heart and soul . My heart saying 'Hey , this song really make me feel better !' Yeah , I know it sounds so "s" . But , it's true . That's the beauty of musics . I love musics so much in my life . I cant live without it . So do you aite ? :)

Like what Bob Marley said :

Bob Marley ! I love you ! Haha . Lol !

And here's the song : 

"Sidewalk Prophets - The words I would say ."

Three in the morning,

And I'm still awake,

So I picked up a pen and a page,

And I started writing,

Just what I'd say,

If we were face to face,

I'd tell you just what you mean to me,

I'd tell you these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,

Never give up hope,

You're going to do great things,

I already know,

God's got His hand on you so,

Don't live life in fear,

Forgive and forget,

But don't forget why you're here,

Take your time and pray,

These are the words I would say,

Last time we spoke,

You said you were hurting,

And I felt your pain in my heart,

I want to tell you,

That I keep on praying,

Love will find you where you are,

I know cause I've already been there,

So please hear these simple truths,

Be strong in the Lord and,

Never give up hope,

You're going to do great things,

I already know,

God's got His hand on you so,

Don't live life in fear,

Forgive and forget,

But don't forget why you're here,

Take your time and pray,

These are the words I would say,

From one simple life to another,

I will say,

Come find peace in the Father,

Be strong in the Lord and,

Never give up hope,

You're going to do great things,

I already know,

God's got His hand on you so,

Don't live life in fear,

Forgive and forget,

But don't forget why you're here,

Take your time and pray,

Thank God for each day,

His love will find a way,

These are the words I would say 

I really love this song . It really suits my situation now . Thank God I found this song . It makes me feel better for now. (I guess ) It means so much to me . The words lead me to think more positive . :)

You guys should listen to it too . It's a good and nice song to hear :)